So I can't say to much without getting in trouble or making certain people angry, so I will try my best to get my thoughts out there with out giving too much away.
Things are complicated. They will always be complicated. I'm not happy with most things in my life. The things/people you would think make me happy, actually make me angry, hateful and miserable. I have a secret about one of my close friends and I will never let it our, no matter how bad I want to. It is a secret that no one knows, not even the friend I am talking about. I just don't know how to deal with things any more. I always want what I don't have and complain about what I do have. I'm rarely happy anymore and when I am it does not last long because the happiness always has an ending. I just do not like how everything has turned out. It is difficult to say what I want to without mentioning what I don't want people to know, so now my venting methods have failed. I'm just going to stop where I am right now and move on to something else. There is no use in trying to talk about what can not be mentioned.